[Error: unknown template qotd]I'm bland but if I noticed that if I did something good, someone will copy me. It tends to be subtle. As for people influencing me...if you don't count deceit and manipulation because of sneakiness that is...then yes 'certain' people can affect my thinking.
I mainly point to the colleagues, ex-school peers and relatives I personally know IRL and added them on Facebook. I used to bitch a lot in Facebook updates and that was before I registered on Twitter. Sorry for those of you on this f-list who do follow me on Twitter that you spot my over the top rambles on life, identity and fandom feelings. I can't help it ^^;;

I still do 'abuse' FB updates on all my accounts (I use more than one for various purposes) but not as much as my first days after registering on that site. Another excuse for not using Facebook much is because I ignore a lot of my colleagues and relatives' updates and each time they ask me how I am I want to run away. They've all been successful in marriage, starting a family or getting the job of their dreams and it sadly makes me jealous. It's why I avoid reading their feeds and filter a lot. I only read updates from musicians, actors or department stores.

Oh my days

May. 7th, 2013 09:12 pm
vash_chan: (Sad Mako-chan)
I have 5 days left of being in my late 20s then I hit a new milestone. Sadly I don't feel like I've "matured" in my life or achieved anything mindblowing when it comes to careers and this makes the change of age a bit scary for me. Will thank / blame the Peter Pan Complex for that XD

But fangirling-wise that is something else. I've explored so many new things, appreciated what some fandom interests have done to make me happy but then when you strip that away I feel like an empty shell.

I wish there was some sort of balance with a good job / promising career and your passions -_-
Still unemployed since getting the boot seven weeks ago. I'm waiting for feedback on internships and job applications. They have late deadlines which might be good if you want to take your time writing good answers but it's painful to wait when you want to do something ASAP and get out of Job Seekers Allowance. Honestly, does the government think reducing the benefits or cutting the amount for lazy Brits and migrants is going to be any help for those who are genuinely looking for work and not family folk? My country is poor and it shows but I hate the snotty rich people who come here from overseas like they own everyone.

Well my job advisor can see what I'm doing since I've registered on Universal Jobmatch. I'm not lying on the job hunting but it is utterly depressing. I have to do approximately 12 applications in a week. WTFH? I really don't want to fly away since I can't fend for myself whatsoever. Though it might be the last option. Or go for another course to build up my skills - a subject I dislike in particular.

Anyway I was tempted to apply as a volunteer at Hyper Japan 2013 in July but then it might affect my so-called schedule to meet any famous people who have been invited as guests. You never know if it is someone you like. I went crazy with the 3 day pass last November. I did a lot of geeky stuff and met a Jrock band I had never heard of and became a fan after seeing them perform live. Conventions hadn't been on my mind since I crash landed into the arms world of Big Bang and so far LFCC hasn't gotten any guests I actually know very well aside from Sarah Wayne Callies who I remember best in Prison Break.

Been catching up on Black Butler/Kuroshitsuji season 1 and nearly done with that finally before moving onto season 2 which I hear is not very good though I'll persevere in order to see who the new characters are. Still fuming over how I didn't buy a Ciel plushie at Hyper Japan or Collectormania London last year. My Sebastian plushie needs a Ciel...or a Grell haha.

If Showmasters got a Vampire Diaries guest at their forthcoming conventions and I happen to know him/her it'll be a risk to meet that person because I'm behind on TVD in general. I stopped watching hte series after the mid-season break finished but that might've been a mistake since I apparently missed out on a lot of stuff and with the arrival of the Originals spin off I have a lot to catch up on.
I wish there was a way we could upgrade or clone ourselves so we could do housework, marathoning TV series or films and writing all at once and not get in trouble for it. It's been happening to me lately. I know I haven't written anything creative in so many years and have fickle reasons for it but I guess writing does get my brain working, even if it means long hours of being in front of the reason. orz.

But then again you can't really do any of these hobbies if you're working full-time in an office can you? Funny because when I went to see my job advisor this afternoon to get my payment this week she was checking my skills and qualifications and asked me if I still write. I explained I did blogging and she said it was good I still write because when we're stressed out (mainly from job hunting) we might want to write to keep our brains working. If only my own blood actually said that to me and not judge me for it. Same goes to certain recruitment agencies.

I lied about not being stressed out over this job hunting because I really am. I have to keep theorising the possible jobs I can do but it seems like I'm running around, wasting time with an Asian F of sorts. I can't just say, "I'm going to learn Mandarin and better myself so I beat the gwei lo." I tried and failed. My mentality is not Asian enough o_O I don't lie to companies when I say I can't speak Cantonese fluently. I dislike the assumption that I'm expected to be good at it because I'm Chinese.
Big Bang you inspired me to self-reflect again. Why? *ponders* Hopefully it'll make sense. I got the idea from watching Intimate Note.

maknae power )
Congratulations on Tom winning Man Of The Year at the Glamour Awards 2012. He was featured in the July issue of Glamour too. I've scanned the short article :)

Glamour Magazine UK article on Tom Hiddleston on Twitpic

July 2012 issue of @glamourmaguk has a feature on @twhiddleston  on Twitpic

Chuckled when it said in the article that Glamour phoned up to congratulate Tom for his award and he said he had just got of the shower XD It distracted them for a bit haha. Speaking of Tom, I had recently watched The Deep Blue Sea and while I did think some parts of the story was quite choppy (length is 98 mins approximately) I felt his performance alongside Simon Russell Beale and Rachel Weisz was very good. I just expected...more. I originally assumed the film was rated 15 so expected some p0rn XD But you can feel the angst. It's not a happy film.

In-between my endless job applications and job hunting I've been trying to catch up on Kdramas. Currently I'm going through Chuno which is angsty and I'm expecting more tragedy till the finale :/ Getting back on the Anime wagon too. Started watching Black Butler/Kuroshitsuji and so far it's good. I remember some of the scenes from the Manga which I'm still reading through and it's WIP after all. I'm so impressed with Sakamoto Maaya. Down to the bashers who said she's a crap Seiyuu. I think she's gotten better and I had no idea she was voicing Ciel Phantomhive until I looked at the Seiyuu list for Black Butler. This is the lady who gave us Kanzaki Hitomi from Escaflowne and Fujioka Haruhi from Ouran. I still need to watch the latter (damn my DVD subs for being bad).

I watched the TV BAFTAs last Sunday and I would've gone to the Royal Festival Hall and wait in the sun for the big names to walk the carpet :( Benedict Cumberbatch got robbed of the leading actor award but given the other nominees I felt it was going to be tough competition. I think Dominic West's win was fair since he had portrayed a serial killer in Appropriate Adult. Not sure if any of you remember the Fred West case many years ago. I'll check out Appropriate Adult since that got nominated so many times at this year's TV BAFTAs. It looks very gritty.

I'm mostly annoyed with Sherlock losing out again on the Youtube Audience Award. They lost to The Only Way Is Essex last year *shudder* and Martin Freeman's reaction to the loss was rather memorable X) This time Sherlock lost to Celebrity Juice. Aigoo. I hope Sherlock wins next year with the arrival of series three. Definitely happy Andrew Scott won Best Supporting Actor for his Moriarty portrayal. His thank you speech was deeply humble. You could see from his face that he just couldn't believe he won the award instead of the other actors. Martin Freeman won last year but if he won again this year I wouldn't have minded.
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I don't see myself making money on the same lines as financial people for sure. I don't think anything will change. I will just grow old and become a hermit. I will never find the right job for me. Doesn't help when you haven't got a specific career in mind and people are so cynical on whatever your dreams are.

If things did go my way, I'd meet trustworthy friends who I get along with and we'd form a band then tour all over the world.

My tweets

Oct. 20th, 2010 12:28 pm
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  • Mon, 16:12: Unsurprisingly my visit to the local job centre didn't last long. OMG you are working over 16 hrs you can't claim or register unemployed
  • Mon, 16:13: Clearly I was given the uh... what are you doing here tone. I'm not a banker but I do work... and I'm not an asylum seeker >.>
  • Mon, 16:15: Despite that little wtf visit at least I got my @apocalypticafi ticket. Just waiting for details on the Meet and Greet. I'm very nervous
  • Mon, 16:41: @ladygaga that's a very different take on the song and I'm not used to Semi Precious Weapons slowing it down. Nice job guys :)
  • Mon, 16:41: @ladygaga and thank you for linking the video :)
  • Mon, 16:43: @preciousweapons guys I was very surprised with how you did that cover. Slowing it down and making it acoustic - loved it :D
  • Mon, 16:43: I liked a YouTube video -- Dance In The Dark http://youtu.be/PWkWhpE8PHE?a
  • Mon, 16:54: @jared_murillo wow awesome to hear!!!!
  • Mon, 19:03: @Regaelao that was a fun cover. Thanks for the link
  • Mon, 19:04: New layout pic is done but Mana gets cut off completely on my screen. Might make the banner smaller if I am not lazy
Read more... )

  • 07:14:41: @iansomerhalder your beastly nature is much needed when it comes to VD, my friend ;D
  • 10:06:20: Can't seem to log into my email accounts. St00pid internet please work D:
  • 10:10:48: Getting stressed about a lot of things at the moment. Good thing @apocalypticafi is here to calm me down during tea break.
  • 15:21:24: Discussion at home about life and careers is so contradictory at times. Last time I mentioned I would go... http://tumblr.com/xluhc30yo
  • 18:35:07: @MaksimC hey Maks just found out Brandy will be your s11 partner and that was who I was kind of hoping for. Good luck to u two :)
  • 19:52:39: Writer's Block: Ground Control to Major Tom http://j.mp/8ZvrXd
  • 19:59:10: @gogomomokoko I'd have to sit down with people and discuss the possibilities of a London Coffee Prince 8D I'm not a huge coffee drink but...
  • 19:59:48: @gogomomokoko ... let's see what happens. It'll have to be in Central London definitely
  • 20:27:47: @gogomomokoko I thought about Tea Prince/Princess or Tea Royalty (something posh) but that doesn't sound as stylish does it?
  • 21:31:58: grr dammit trying to log into a message board and suddenly it just dies on me

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  • 09:51:37: I guess my wishful thinking from a few months back didn't come true. Still at the same job...bleugh
  • 10:05:55: Since the @Direngrey gig i feel inspired to buy a shirt. Was thinking of the Dozing Green girl tshirt one
  • 10:16:13: or the one I saw could have been handmade. I don't know. I just checked the official diru store and it has a different Dozing Green shirt
  • 10:52:18: @arlenephillips Yeah I'm the same though most of the time I'm stormy and windy on a daily basis
  • 11:34:29: @gogomomokoko I fail musically too :( I think I may have destroyed my guitar even though I had it tuned a while ago at a shop ^_^;;
  • 12:07:13: I signed the "Bring X Japan to the UK" petition! http://petol.org/xjapanuk #petol @yoshikiofficial @xjapanofficial
  • 14:58:22: @Showmasters I'm definitely jealous ^_^;;
  • 16:01:39: I liked a YouTube video -- X Japan - Yoshiki interview w Perry Farrell.mp4 http://youtu.be/Z6jaYJQUqBg?a
  • 16:06:06: @YoshikiOfficial I liked your interview with Perry Farrell. BTW do whatever you want with the music. Make everyone headbang ;P
  • 16:55:43: #glee Jessie St .James why hello indeedy
  • 17:05:42: People are never satisfied with whatever 'good deed' you do. It's why I never talk about my dreams or wishes with any close ones
  • 19:05:55: Envious of the lucky American X Japan fans at Lollapalooza right now. Hope X fans have fun
  • 19:32:27: I was behind the guy smoking xD (YouTube http://youtu.be/2p5nU_gYBdg?a)
  • 19:33:08: @Showmasters going to see if I can try attending this one next year
  • 19:44:51: I liked a YouTube video -- X Japan Born to be Free @ Club Nokia 7/1/10 http://youtu.be/zo2lieMs5iw?a
  • 20:04:48: Took out all the Twilight saga books from my cupboard to make more room for my new books. Obayo Twilight. Do... http://tumblr.com/xluf8yday
  • 20:06:56: @XplosionOnline you guys are so damn lucky today. Enjoy it X fans
  • 20:07:24: @YoshikiOfficial I would like to rock with you guys too but it would have to be by my computer XD
  • 20:12:42: @XplosionOnline aww I'm in UK so it's also sad for me. I'm sure it'll be a blast for those who managed to get to Lollapalooza
  • 20:48:23: @tvdfansonline I'm guessing one of the MTV channels might show it later in a few months time but I haven't heard anything yet
  • 20:58:25: I doubt I'll be able to get @xjapanofficial 's live footage at Lollapalooza since I have to call it a night soon. Goddamn work
  • 21:00:10: Whoa one channel just kicked in and gave me a jump ^_^;;

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I'd probably say job I enjoy but pays little. It's a risk I'd have to take if I want to pursue a dream/ideal job. I've been working at different companies in the last five years where my pay has been varied from incredibly bad to very good but they're all temp assignments and most of the time I didn't enjoy working at those places :(


Jun. 29th, 2010 11:15 am
vash_chan: ("I'm the motherfuckin' princess" ~ T-Bag)
I dreamed a dream I was given the boot )

  • 16:19:49: today has turned out to be 'sit and be lashed at till you feel meaningless' day. Marvellous
  • 16:40:12: "I can’t pay my rent, but I’m fucking gorgeous" - wow @preciousweapons you weren't wrong on having brash lyrics ^_^;;
  • 16:45:58: @TomFelton wow 10 yrs?! Time just flies doesn't it? Take in as much as you can on your final day
  • 16:46:41: @TomFelton Oh btw thank you for bringing Draco to life from the books. You just nail the character so well :)
  • 20:32:11: #jpn sugoi!!!!
  • 22:02:45: Vikings were slaughtered by the Samurai tonight o_O What went wrong?
  • 22:08:10: I was watching a bit of Grey's Anatomy after a long absence and heard @keaneofficial 's My Shadow in the background. Gush gush
  • 22:10:25: Ever since I got this current job I haven't been to an agency for 3 yrs. I'm nervous because I have to do a quick recording of myself too
  • 22:13:47: I just have to be myself. Be honest and tell them what I want. Done that to death in the past but got nowhere. Let there be change plz
  • 22:16:43: It's not like I'm having an interview for a dream job as well. I get nervous easily

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  • 07:27:28: I find it a bit insulting when someone of your blood uses your personal interests and turns it against you. Way to burst happy bubble >_>
  • 07:28:02: This is why I refuse to be overly optimistic all the time. When you get hurt from a burst happy bubble, it hurts like hell
  • 07:30:23: It's ok to be happy and smile but don't overdo it because it gets disturbing
  • 07:36:46: Home, no need to remind me I will never find a job I want. I know so stop reminding me out of the blue RIGHT before I go to sleep
  • 07:40:07: I'll probably go to job centre tomorrow. Fake smile and pleading expression to help me find a job required. Kuso kuso kuso
  • 11:49:02: No thanks to home’s late night you have no chance of looking for a job lecture everything is going wrong... http://tumblr.com/xluc1wz1k
  • 12:09:40: @Whatsonstage Hiya thanks for the heads up!!
  • 12:11:42: Super noodles and pot noodles really can't compare to the Far East imports in terms of taste. Nissen foods anyone
  • 12:13:54: Sorry that should be *Nissin* foods. I prefer those noodles (cup or no cup noodles) more than Batchelors or Golden Wonder's products
  • 19:39:08: Yep everything is going very wrong today and I dread my days off on Thurs and Fri. Too much conflict going round me >_>
  • 19:56:49: @joshgroban I'm sure the new album will be good. Bring it on Josh
  • 20:00:51: It's like having all right to be emotional forbidden.
  • 20:38:35: #trueblood "You're in my house, Mr Compton. Put your fangs away" God that sounds so corny in general but Russell means it when he says it
  • 20:39:35: #trueblood hello Calvin Norris :D Um...drunk Jason - nothing new there *pats Jason on the head* gosh those werewolves look feisty
  • 20:40:35: @Mattdavelewis a classic grudge isn't it?
  • 20:41:27: Finally finished ep 2 of TB s3 after countless interruptions and disputes that had to make me pause each scene for more than an hr
  • 20:48:31: #trueblood Terry and his list of reasons awww...
  • 21:03:06: #trueblood wonder how James Frain was picked to be Franklin Mott. He looks nothing like the character but let's see how he deals with Tara
  • 21:08:27: #trueblood the flashbacks with Eric in Germany during 1940s was cool.

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  • 07:28:08: is Twitter suffering a case of #failwhale then?
  • 07:49:12: #whiletwitterwasdown I was reading a chapter of #deadinthefamily and watching the new ep of #trueblood
  • 07:53:23: an oldie but a goodie - http://www.intergacktive.rocks.it :)
  • 08:44:05: Dreamt a so-called friend rang to pass me the message that I was fired
    from my current job. Wishful thinking or a prophetic dream?
  • 18:34:42: @brian_littrell it's gonna be really hard to do that since Twitter is acting weird :(
  • 20:52:09: I'm naturally regretting I didn't buy a ticket to see @keaneofficial tonight at Roundhouse. It's a great venue.
  • 21:26:04: Yep I'm definitely stressing out from not going to see them tonight. Plus... job hunting has been a pain in the arse tonight

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  • 07:28:11: Wow @diabloswing actually linked to my Balrog Boogie vid from the London gig last Fri on their MS and FB pgs ^_^;; thank you so much...
  • 07:40:57: Is it worth uploading the vid on YT as well? Or no need? Maybe I should leave it just on twitvid as my connection can die quickly
  • 07:55:28: Nah just linked it. Too lazy lah... ^_^;;
  • 07:56:07: #strikeback Toby Stephens doing an American accent wow it surprised me so much.
  • 07:58:27: #strikeback I originally expected a bloodbath between Porter and Collinson but nope. What happened in the past surfaces though...
  • 08:50:35: I’ve read 4 chapters of Stephen Gately’s book so far and it’s good. I totally see the Steo in Josh’s shirt... http://tumblr.com/xlua6le3h
  • 12:26:28: Pisses me off when I search for blogger roles it comes up in the sectors of financial, medical or the sports world D:<
  • 14:11:19: I forget that certain sites tend to be blocked when you try to access them at work. Namely job sites ^_^;;
  • 14:58:49: Two months left till Spain week off. I will be cooked by the sun if I’m not careful (ugh). Let’s hope I can... http://tumblr.com/xlua6z31d
  • 18:03:50: @Kiz_zle lmao I like that trending topic. Just saw the video too. I do like my fair share of romance when it's done well but this... no.
  • 18:04:29: Just saw the @muse vid for Eclipse. If I was a teenage fangirl I'd be in a puddle of goo (uh I mean drool) by now... but I'm not.
  • 20:01:39: RT @sophie_charity: here's a fantastic review of the HOPE album for SOPHIE

    A review of 'Hope'.. http://tinyurl.com/2uqb4vw please re ...
  • 20:15:34: Saw a job post that interests me but the only prob is the location. It's in a rough part of London. Damn. Well it's worth a shot right?
  • 20:59:37: I'm listening to the last disc of Carmen and it amazes me how many songs I recognise. A whole new level of opera appreciation has been born

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